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Thank you for sharing Holly. Your sentence "His pain has become her pain" really touched me.

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You’re so welcome! It’s one of the mysteries of motherhood: I’ve found that I feel his pain as if it were my own 😥

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Those nights are so hard, but somehow we get through them. They are hell at the time though.

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We do get through them, somehow indeed! 🙌

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This made me teary and brought me back to those early days with my first. Not being able to comfort your crying baby is one of the most emotionally painful things I’ve ever experienced. It’s incredible the heart expansion that happens as soon as that babe starts growing I’m in you 💛

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I remember being absolutely beside myself when it was the middle of the night and he just wouldn’t sleep, wouldn’t settle: he just screamed and screamed. I didn’t know what to do and it was awful. Thank you for sharing how this connected with you 🥰

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A world of both/and 💛

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Feb 27Liked by Holly A Brown

This is beautiful, and very relatable.

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Thank you for your kind comment. I’m glad you found it relatable 🥰

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I imagine you have, you’re a writer - but have you written/considered writing longer form, even novels? There’s something about the depth and atmosphere of your writing that reminds me of Ishiguro’s ‘The Buried Giant’ (incidentally, an unusual story but such a magnificent piece of art in character description). I’ve never felt such emotion and connection from snippets set in the past the way yours are. It speaks to me on an almost chemical level - I absolutely love reading your work.

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You’re so kind! I am actually writing a novel at the moment, although it’s the first time I’ve tried this kind of extended writing so I think I’m learning as I go and will have to re-write huge chunks of the first part. I share it in my paid posts twice per month. I love doing these little short stories because they feel like a practise: I can play with ideas but only have the ‘pressure’ of 200 words or so. It’s so fun for me!

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